Friday, January 27, 2006

Complete the task! ...and other catch phrases made popular by hillbilly impersonators turned into proper english.

I'm writing in a font I like, on a keyboard like, in a room I like, in a house I like, in a place that's home, in a geographic location that I am getting accustom to. It's fantastic but not always in a way I recognize. I am often blinded by burdens. I welcome them as some sort of affirmation. Speaking of affirmation... My lovely loving lady and I just watched an amazing life affirming movie; Thumbsucker. We both heard an interview on NPR with the author of the novel that it was based on. I was in my car, she was in hers, in transit. Some few months ago. Just now, I sit feeling alive and inspired listening to the most amazing song (My Insect Life - Kaki King), as the song ends I think 'I need to hear that again'. Felecia in the next room says 'Can you play that again?' What, I ask you, is so wrong with my life? Nothing.
No thing.
Nothin', g.
I have thought 'there is an answer to everything'.
I have thought 'there isn't an answer to everything'.
In deeper truths, I find the latter.
Talk like yoda, and sound smart you will. Life is a word that represents so much. Good is a word that is very insufficient. Still I can't help but feel that life is in fact good. Thanks all. 8¬Þž

p.s.
Complete the task = git r dun

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Welcome to poor me.

In order to get something, doesn't one usually have to put effort into achieving said thing of some nature ? Lately, and during other parts of my life, I have felt an aching sense of entitlement. As if I am silently saying; "don't I deserve more ? Don't I deserve better ?" To what end, you may wonder, am I feeling entitled. Well, I want to be financially stable. I want to earn this stability with the help of a job that I enjoy. My general felling is; Haven't I suffered enough ? This entitlement comes from some self victimization idea. I was raised with this idea. Life is suffering, or more accurately, suffering is unavoidable. As such, when you suffer, something beneficial is gained. When you work a terrible job, you are paid well. Conversely I have a the idea etched in my mind that, with every good, there is bad to follow.
*Break*
My internet connection is terrible. I wrote this 2 days ago and couldn't post it till today. Now I feel disconnected from it.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

'We Care a Lot' or 'Be to semantics more'

"Elohim, with the rhyme scheme
and when the lyrics leave the mouth, they look like light beams
with wings attached to the mic I say fly rhymes
read between the lines (here Vast lies)
the beat be trying to sex me and marry me (what)
I'm talkin white picket fence and a family" - Vast Aire